After a year at home, everyday feels the same. I get up at the same time, and follow the same schedule. I live, teach, and relax in my living room. I take Richard to the park at the same time everyday. That’s why any change to the schedule feels almost celebratory.
Despite the sameness of every, I use my school planner religiously. I was thrilled last week to see “10:00 Library pick-up” written in Friday’s planner cell. I looked forward to it all week. Because I only go out when necessary, I try to consolidate trips out. I added to Friday’s to do list:
mail packages @ USPS
get groceries
pick-up library holds
I left home and ticked off the first two items without at hitch. I timed everything perfectly and arrived at the library a few minutes before it opened. A few people were in line, and by the time I arrived to join them, standing on the designated spots, the doors had opened. As always, the line moved quickly and soon, I was at the doors.
“Last name is Gillespie,” I said, smiling behind my mask.
Behind the table in the lobby, the librarian scanned her clipboard. She flipped to the next page. And the next.
“Did you say Gillespie?” she asked. I don’t see it here.
Suddenly, doubt stabbed my heart. The appointment was in my planner, but had I actually made it, I wondered. It’s amazing how many thoughts can pass through you mind in an instant. I remember thinking about making the appointment, weighing the pros and cons of each option, wondering if I should wait until more books were ready for pick-up. Had I written it in my planner, but not made the appointment?
“It’s not a problem,” continued the librarian. “We can check those out to you today. I’ll be back in a moment.”
I stepped out of line for the next person to give their name, and raked through my memories again. Beofre long, the librarian was back with my stack.
“I’m so sorry,” I said as she placed my book on the tray used to pass the books from librarian to patron. ” I guess I thought about making the appointment, but didn’t actually schedule it.
“We’d rather the books were going out instead of just sitting there,” she replied with a cheery smile in her eyes.
I thanked her and left, still wondering about my error.
Yesterday, I received a holds notice from the library. I scanned the appointment options, considering the most convenient time. I scheduled a pick-up time, and recorded it in my planner. I also saved the email message confirming my appointment.